Less than a month

Haiz......Haiz..... Not much time left. Feeling ultra depressed and sian. I'm so sian, that i boh chap my pets even. Example, i usually hand-feed my kois. Fun....interesting. BUt now, i just throw the damn food in and leave, i scard the more i look at them the more i remember them, and the more i'll miss them when i'm rubbing my hands together in front of a stupid fan heater. Its also around this time that i try to stop watching TV. Cos it really really fucking piss me off when u see previews of new shows, and u really want to watch it...AND you can't. And i'm so tired of going out of my house too. Just sianz. Want to sleep and wake up on the 25th. Than take the flight back liaoz. I cannot stand this fucking waiting period. But hey...this is sort of the last time i'm gonna feel this way. Hopefully in dec, my stay will be so short i dun feel a thing.
THe other day me dad was telling me to go for me convocation. I think he knows i quite reluctant to go. Than he say that although its quite boh liao. Very important to go and take photos and stuff. Than he said last time his mom came all the way from Bandung to jarkata(3hr car ride!) for his graduation and took lots of photos. Than when i asked him where are the photos. He scratched his head and said, "i don't know. Must go and find." Hmmz...yes....i guess his graduation photos mean very fucking much to him huh?